So here I am again. why is this happening to me once again? I am tried of this life. I am tired of doing these stupid mistakes. I need to a turn around. I am done. I believe I subconsciously act out when he “rejects” me. Seems whenever I have decided to act out on my emotions is to try to hurt him, but he doesn’t know. So I hurt myself. What I would do to be in your arms. What I would do for you to say “hi, I am sorry.” What I would do to be with you.